Sunday, January 12, 2014

Hidup

Assalamualaikum wbr

hari2ku berlalu membenakkan sesuatu dalam jiwaku , kadang aku melihat pada kesempurnaan ciptaan Allah, tetapi aku terlepas pandang pada Allah.
adakah aku kurang percaya , maka aku minta padaMu yAllah, kuatkanlah iman aku.
adakah kerana aku punya banyak dosa, maka aku memohon padaMu , ampunkanlah aku, dan berikanlah aku HidayahMu.

kerana aku yakin, mungkin kerana dosaku yang bertimbun, Kau tidak memberikan aku petunjuk.
mungkin kerana banyaknya focus aku pada dunia, terhalanglah HidayahMu padaku.
maka aku terfikir dan aku terus terfikir dalam harianku.
ya "syafi, apakah yang kau fikirkan tujuan kau dipinjamkan diatas muka bumi!???"


Allah katakan

"Sesungguhnya Allah tidak segan membuat perumpamaan seekor nyamuk atau yang lebih kecil dari itu.adapun orang2 yang beriman , mereka tahu bahawa itu kebenaran dari Tuhan. Tetapi mereka yang kafir berkata "Apa maksud Allah dengan perumpamaan ini?" Dengan (perumpamaan) itu banyak orang yang dibiarkanNya sesat, dn dengan itu banyak (pula) orang yang diberiNya petunjuk. Tetapi tidak ada yang Dia sesatkan dengan (perumpamaan) itu selai orang2 fasik", (iaitu) orang-orang yang langgar perjanjian Allah setelah (perjanjian) itu diteguhkan, dan memutuskan apa yang diperintahkankan Allah untuk disambungkan , dan berbuat kerosakan di bumi,itulah orang-orang yang rugi

dan dihuraikan tentang ayat ini ,
Allah boleh memberikan pelbagai jenis contoh jika Dia mahukan, pada ayat diatas manusia itu seperti seekor nyamuk ,yang mana nyamuk itu sentiasa mencari2 makanan untuk dimakan sehingga kenyang, dan setelah kenyang maka ia akan mati.
begitu jugalah seperti manusia, manusia akan hidup selagi mana dia tidak menjumpai maksud tujuan hidup mereka, dan akan mati setelah mana mereka mencapai maksud tujuan hidup mereka, "maka celakalah bagi mereka yang mana mereka hidup tetapi tidak sampai maksud tujuan hidup mereka , yang mana apabila mereka mengaku sebagai seorang yang beriman sedangkn dalm hati mereka tidak beriman"





ada makna dunia ini, ada makna Allah ciptakan seluruh alam ini dan makna itu tersimpan didalam alQuran,
perkara yang diperintahkan oleh Allah, semua tercatat dalam alQuran, bukalah, bukalah dan baca.
apa maknanya Allah turunkan alQuran itu jika bukan kerana ada message yang ingin disampaikan makna dihidupkan di muka bumi ini.

sungguh aku terpaku di pangkuanku sendiri, apakah yang aku cari dalam hidupku jika setiap hari mencari nikmat. Allah sudah janjikan nikmat itu disyurga, tapi aku masih ingkar!
masih ingin mencari nikmat didunia

aku takut, sungguh2 aku takut!
aku takut melihat dunia yang aku senangi, aku takut aku terlampau senang sampaikan aku tidak mampu hidup susah diakhirat, aku terpadam dengan keselesaan, keenakan dunia
sedang dunia ini sudah tua, pelbagai tanda Allah telah berikan, mungkin ingin Allah sampaikan padaku "Inilah waktunya hambaku, berikanlah masamu untuk dekat padaku, masamu tidak banyak, cepatlah taubat padaKu ,kerana Aku sayangkan kamu wahai hambaku"


"Sungguh Allah membentangkan tanganNya setiap malam agar orang yang berbuat kejahatan di siang hari mahu bertaubat. Dan Dia juga membentangkan tanganNya di siang hari agar orang yang berbuat kejahatan di malam hari mahu bertaubat."
(HR Imam Muslim dan Ahmad)


"Wahai Bani Adam, kalian tidaklah (sungguh-sungguh) berdoa dan mengharap padaKu, Aku akan mengampuni dosa-dosa kalian dan Aku tidak peduli. Wahai Bani Adam, jikalau dosa kalian mencapai awan di langit, lalu kalian minta ampun padaKu, Aku akan mengampuni kalian, dan Aku tidak peduli. Wahai Bani Adam, jikalau kalian datang padaKu dengan dosa sebesar ukuran bumi, tetapi kemudian kalian mendatangiKu dengan tanpa berbuat syirik padaKu, maka Aku akan mendatanganimu dengan ampunan sebesar itu pula."(HR At-Tirmidzi)

Allah~ menitis airmataku~
mengapa Allah terlalu baik untukku pada setiap hari aku. jika tidak aku sedarkan diri semalam dan hari ini mengapa tidak saja kau mencabutkan nyawaku???
Kenapa kau terlalu baik untuk hambamu sedangkan kami tidak bersyukur walau meminjam duniaMu.

sedang aku?
aku bersenang-senang diatas muka bumi Allah yang dipinjam ini, tetapi aku tidak bersyukur langsung atas nikmat ini , tetapi terus nikmat demi nikmat aku nikmati. 
aku kesal akan diriku, aku sangat mengambil berat tentang diriku ,keselesaan diriku. sehinggakan kadang aku mengabaikan kemanisan yang Allah telah berikan padaku tanpa rasa syukur.
apakah yang mataku lakukan untuk Islam, apakah tanganku lakukan untuk Islam, apakah kakiku lakukan untuk Islam???
Allah, maafkanlah hambamu ini
tiadalah aku ditempatkan diatas muka bumi hanya untuk mengabdikan diri padaMu.


jika ingin mencari keselesaan. syurga juga ada keselesaan.
jadi jika dunia dan diakhirat juga selesa, apa sebenarnya erti aku hidup???
untuk bersenangan sahaja?


sebuah kisah seorang anak bertanya seorang bapa


suatu hari, anak Imam Ahmad bin Hnbal iaitu Abdullah bin Ahmad bertanya kepada bapanya akan satu soalan "Wahai bapa, bilakah masanya kita betul-betul boleh berehat?"

sambil memandang lembut ke dalam mata anaknya, Imam Ahmad Hanbal dengan penuh hikmah dan tenang lalu menjawab soalan anaknya itu " Kita hanya betul-betul boleh berehat apabila kaki kita sudah melangkah masuk ke dalam syurga"



benakkan doa ini didalam doa harianmu

"YaAllah dengarkanlah doa hambamu ini, YaAllah yaTuhan kami, sampaikanlah tujuan kami, ampunkanlah dosa kami, Allah Yang Maha Mulia""


                                                 

moga sampailah maksud tujuan hidup kita~

Monday, July 22, 2013

Wanita itu




seorang wanita yang bangun 3 pagi untuk berqiam, sujudnya lama bak merintiskan sesuatu,
setiap hari, dirinya tidak lekang berjaga pagi ibarat orang yang sering meneguk air namun tidak pernah kenyang. 
tatkala orang sibuk tidur nyenyak di atas katil, dia menebarkan sejadah untuk dijadikan alas sujud pada Allah. 

Dia memperlihatkan dirinya ibarat Rabiatul Adawiyah di tengah pagi, di siangnya hamba yang kerdil yang mengeledah ilmu utk amal, dakwah untuk jihad, dan tarbiyah buat hati bagi bekalan pagi harinya. 
beliau teguh dengan prinsip diri, setiap pagi itulah yang dicari, iaitu kekuatan yang tak semua orang mampu lakukan, kecuali yang rela melepaskan nikmat utk Ilahi. 

Dia tidak melepaskan ia pergi, tanpa pagi bersama Allah hidupnya terasa sepi, kerana peneman sejatinya adalah takut pada Allah. 

tatkala orang disana sedang disiksa, dia turut merasa. tangisan demi tangisan setiap hari tanpa noktahnya. itulah yang dia hajatkan dalam doa paginya utk melihat kembalinya kebahagiaan di dunia demi kemenangan mujahidden dan umat yang berjiwa Islam. 
beliau memang mahir dalam hal empati. disebabkan itu beliau tidak senang tidur dikatil empuk walhal terdapat orang sedang terjaga kerana diseksa bertubi2.

inilah yang tidak orang nampak pada seorang yang berhati suci yang kiblatnya tidak sesekali manusia atau yang seangkatannya. beliau tidak menyerahkan harta dan jiwa raganya untuk perkara sia2 diatas dunia. 
kerana dunia ini sementara, sementara untuk yang kenal apakah tujuan kedatangan kedunia.

Sunday, July 21, 2013

danger is very real, but fear is a choice



Danger is a common thing that happen through our life, it's the circle of life where we cant live without it nor run from it. it is a very magnificient thing that happen through this life for those who realize its a test for success. 

Danger isnt what it seems to be. if people look danger  as the end as his/her carrier, thats wrong. danger need to be look as a chance, there is a hidden key inside every danger where it needs to be opened. and when we opwn it we might saw something that not usually people see. 

usually I relate Danger as Challenges. it is something that we need to face, not to run , it need to be trace not to neglect . because if we run from it, we might lose a chance to learn something that are very precious.

for a baby to stop falling, they need to fall atleast 100 times before they realize they actually not moving very good. that is the sunnahtullah, they think they are good enough with the falling, untuk they found out that walking is better . they need to learn how to fall before they can walk, they need to walk to know how to run. and when they become bigger, some other things they need to learn more from life rather than fall,walk and run. because they have many others things that awaits. so the challenges need to be face even it seems danger. 

when i was young i had a terrible momment facing my fear, this is real. i dont know what is soft skill,i dont know how to talk , in fact! when i talk people dont even realize that im talking. maybe thats the effect when i dont usually get into the community so much.
but then i realize, smooth wave dont make a good sailor
ive started small where i start to intterupt some conversation, and try to build a conversation by myself. alhamdulillah, its getting better but not perfect.

i learn that actually its not me who dont want to take the chance, but the fear inside me is stronger than my courage.
after a few moment i realize that in order to fight my fear, my courage must be stronger. 

there is when i step ahead and tell my self that "danger is very real, but fear is a choice"-will smith





Friday, July 19, 2013

i was there



i was there when people dont seems to be care about me.
i was there when i couldnt make a good decision for myself. 
i was there when i cant control my lust and trust.
i was there hoping people to praise me.
 i was there where no one seems to be under me.
 i was there when i feels that i was the only one who is right, and everybody is wrong.
 i was there when i make sins and Allah purify me, and then i make sins again.
i was there when i judge people so much, then i realize that i make mistakes more than them.
i was there where i talk too much, but i didnt act.
i was there when i ignored people so much, until i hurt myself.
i was there when people care about me, but i didnt care about them.
i was there thinking that i need to be with this girl until i die although Islam prevent it.
i was there when people talk good about me, but actually im not.
i was there in the ocean of egoism and entrovert 
i was there where i make decisions take hurt myself and eventually it hurt others too.
i was there thinking that i am clever than other people.
i was there when i act before i think.



I WAS THERE FOR SOME REASON why im not that kind of person today. 
because I know i need to go through this things that Allah showed me, so i wont suffer more in the future if i keep on repeating the same thing day after day. 
i dont want that type of person that are full of madness,egoism,selfish to human and Allah .the things that i'd gone through is a problem that need to be pardon about and managed so i make a wiser decision so i wont fall into the same hole.
Alhamdulillah
and Allah brought me here better, from the person I am before.
Allah showed me the line that He want me to adventure, so He can teach me the meaning of life and how to appreciate a life that are given by Him.
Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah , he showed me the path that I shouldnt go through, so I wont do the same mistake again and again. 

He make things look dark so i think its good,  i though thats good for me to be dark but then i realize actually its white , im just color blind. 

"Even a clear rain comes from a dark cloud"





"sejarah mengajar kita menjadi lebih dewasa" -Ramli Sarip

Thursday, July 18, 2013

muslim contemporary



being a muslim that update with the modernization is a very good habit, it keeps us more alert in the situation  surrounding. 
muslims tend to spread da'wa more easily with a wider coverage. when the television shows the false statement, we enlighten the truth through media social, wonderful. 

when the kuffar is trying to bring down the muslims in the world through media social , we tend to use the media social to spread the da'wa. some tricks they use to condamn the muslims through social network are been restricted due to the da'wa.  this is where the magic happen. 
instead of their busying themselves counting the star, actually they lost the moon.

however,this also showed a problematic situation, on how to determine the news is truth or not? 

the first and foremost is to experience the situation itself. such as, when egypt is under attack, we dont need a full news which comes from American mouth or Malaysian mouth. its not their who experience the action, it might be a false or truth news which spreaded from the television or radio, so its a doubt in there. im emphasizing us to search for the witness in the scene, that include chit chatting with the people in the egypt or to talk to them. 

that's why information is important so we dont get into a mouse trap. "if" we did receive a false and weird information that comes with a doubt , why not we search for more sources that can be trusted, rather than we know something that isnt true and we spread it wide. social network is like a wave, it can be a wave that cause destruction or bring a smooth sailing .

second thing is, be an open minded person in receiving information.watch out! if we like an information that convinced us so much . such as nowadays, people keep spreading the good effect of drinking a full glass of "anai-anai" which eat a mashaf. for once, when we imagine it might be good , yet it could be weird how could we practice the Quran with just a drink of lalang.
everybody knows that the contain of the Quran are ment to be practiced, not to be drinked. this kind of action is unacceptable which can cause us to lose our akidah.
so beware of the information around, and be an open minded person who can divide the truth and the false through research not through feelings.





Saturday, July 13, 2013

Seorang Imam Terawih


kopiah berwarna putih sepadan dengan jubah yang digayakan pada hari itu, beliaulah syeikh Jibril yang menggegarkan surau yg indah itu. 

subhanaAllah tidak pernah dengar suara yg amat merdu yg didayukan ketika solat tarawih kecuali hari itu. malah berani saya katakan, suaranya lebih sedap dr sluruh imam yg pernah saya dengarkan di Malaysia.

walau bacaannya agak laju namun susun atur ayat dan tajwid pun ditepatinya. dengan kemerduan suara beliau tidak dapat tidak menitiskan air mata orang sekeliling yg mendengarkn suara yg cukup lunak dan mendayu.
pada bacaan qunutnya, beliau amat menekankan orang yg berjihad dijalanNya , terutama yang sedang berjuang untuk mempertahankan hak seorang Hafiz di mesir .
aku mengsyaki  beliau menitiskan air mata pada penghujung doa kerana kedengaran suara yg mula teresak2, kelihatan disitu beliau mengiginkan tertegaknya Islam di Mesir

usai solat terawih itu, kerinduan untuk mendengarkan kembali suara yang merdu untuk beberapa lama tidak kesampaian kerana beliau akhiri dengan doa yang ringkas. walau sebentar saja masa itu berlalu, tetap hati ini cukup tertaut pada suara yang telah memenuhi ruang hati ini dengan kerinduan padaNya.
SubhanaAllah~


             




Thursday, July 11, 2013

The beginning

assalamualaikum wbr,

almost most of us define the term "change" as hard and burden . it needs true courage and a big effort to do so. actually its not as hard as what it seems to be, its just need a little effort, and a beginning . sometimes we dont even start the first step yet but we argue so much, until we tired of arguing and realize that we dont even take a step .
 just remember a step of journey is better than a thousand books.

1st

the first thing is to take the first steps. in order to take the steps is to have the intention in ourselves. some people straight away think about the hard part on changing, thats why they failed to change .no one is forcing us to change in a clip of an eye, we can take a small steps ,no need to rush! its better doing small ibadah that is istiqamah rather than a big ibadah but didnt istiqamah. so firstly, stick to the intention to change in ourselves.
even it may seems small, but it effects alot in our life.

for some people, when they have the intention to change, they immidiately throw away the things that might make them stick to their old character. 
for some people they dont want to sacrifice even a little, so soon or later they will have the disease back, where they stick to their old self.  they need to slowly throw the disease away that make them more closer to dunya than ukhrawi. 
so what we gonna do?
1stly, dont watch movies or drama too much, because it may cause a disease to our heart. which makes the iman fades . 
dont see boys/girls frequently and don't think of them everytime, because thinking of human will make us drown to dunya ,so the way is to lower our gaze

2nd
people have their own characteristic and thinking. some may see it hard to change , some may see it easy . so here we need to play the main role,.find a good friend, find a better friend that can guide us throught the way of life. i am stressing  this because most people find it wrong. some people say they can live in a community of harsh and brutal people because they can balance themselves in either way, but usually they endup being totally like them.
how can a sheep get into a group of lion and tell them to become like a sheep. but a majority of sheep can change the attitude even a lion to become like a sheep.
so even, we want to be friend with the people who are "naughty" , seriously we need more people (backup) who can really guide us to akhirah rather than guided by naughty people.